Divided We Fall, Alone We Stand!
Thursday April 09, 2009.

Over the past week i been thinking alot about my family, issues i may or may not have with them. The more i thought about it i realized we are divided even if no one else see's it we are. No one does anything with each other or bothers to talk. We don't spend time with each other and it's like we pick sides. Family is not supposed to be like that. were supposed to be there for one another and take care of each other. When one person hurts we all hurt, when one person needs something we do whatever to make sure they get it. I mean family is supposed be the number one thing in life were you know when all else goes wrong they will pick you up and make it better and help you get strong. It use to be when you wanted something on the hush it was kept that way,or when you are down they try to cheer you up, you got hurt they was there making sure you were better.

But now it just feels like everyone knows everything and got some grimy ass shit to say, no one respects one another one, no one cares enough to say hi how you been u doing good ect. Everyone is always blaming each other for there own actions and i aint saying i am not at fault because i am but no one says yeah i was wrong it was my fault but only me , no they are so quick to blame it on some one else and play oh i never do anything wrong. It may start with a dirty look followed by an attitude but sooner or later people are going to get tired of that and start yelling and it always happens. No one talks without bitcing and fighting so how the hell do you even go to someone and say hey listen i have an issuse can we please talk and work it out, na it don't play like that it's always fighting. More then anything i get blamed and put at fault, yeah maybe sometimes i am but not 100%, to get an attitude you need to give me one first, to get me yelling you got to start shit with me first.

This family is more drama, bitch fighting, screaming and yelling then anything. I am not going to apologize for being real and honest with people, there is a point where i feel as a person not a daughter, sister, but a person that i am outcasted because of who i am and what i do or don't like. We are all different and do our own thing, never once did i think it was a bad thing but however when you reach that point were you start wanting to have a relationship so to say with your family or maybe one person being so divided really hurts the chances. Some one is always upset over something but when it came down to why, they don't tell you or will pick a fight so they can blame there bad shit on you and only you. Where is the love in any of this? Honestly there really aint none and the sad truth of the matter is the main cause main issuse for the shit is the only thing keeping us together in away. Point is i think and feel things should be different in alot of ways. People are blind to what goes on and how everyone feels, there are issuses big issues and it feels like people think well if i don't talk about it then it never happen and it aint there. No it does not work that way, puting it off makes it worse.

Things just need to change and people need to get real with shit that's all i'm saying. I own up to my mistakes and actions, so why is it no one else can? Why no one can step up and say i got an issuse with you or i don't like something u said and did? No i get talked badly about and grimy looks. Then when you question people about it because you end up hearing it from another person, what do they do, they straight up lie to your face and say they never said it. Then people wanna talk about why there is no trust or anything within this family. Take a good look at yourselfs and really think who is at fault and who does what. You aint all goodie goodie even if you want to believe so.


Nicole,Stephanie.