My personality

I'm a loud mouth with a very screwed up attitude but a more jacked outlook on life. I don't really like talking about how i feel, i hide things and keep secerts from alot of people. I am totally different from anyone you knwo or could meet, as dumb as it sounds, i aint like most girls, being jealous don't happen with me. I'm pretty laid back but self-centered stuck up and think too highly of myself. I pride myself on being a hardcore asshole. I'm not the kind of person who cares about what any one thinks or if i hurt there feelings. I believe in being honest and lying only if needed. I'm a trouble maker and i love seeing others fight over retard things as long as it aint one of mt besties. I act crazy say some of the dumbest most random things ever that you wont understand. I am a total jackass and have no respect for most people and never will.

Just me

I am one of the most confident people you would get sick of, I am always looking on the mirror playing with my hair. I'm 5'3 so being short is something i hate but on the bright side i can walk under a tree and not hit my face on branch. I have beautiful blue green grayish eyes that i love but sometimes hate. I have naturally dirtyblonde/brown hair, i dye it all the time and straighten it. No matter what i am always going to hate my hair end of story.

Real Talk

I am not what you think I am. People speculate about my fascination with violence and hardcore sex. Mostly it's about trying to connect. I'm a strong believer that The only way to find true happiness, is to risk being completely cut open. I've been through hell and back. I've lied && been lied to. I've fucked up. Fucked people up. And been fucked up. I'm not gonna lie like everyone else & say I have no regrets. Because trust me, I have plenty. But my life is mine. And not you, nor anyone else can fuck it up for me. I'm the real deal. And I'd love to see you try to fucking break me. There's so much more to me than what you see.

I am, at times, too open and honest. It has gotten me in trouble. I've forgiven people when I shouldn't have. And I've failed to ask for forgiveness when I should have. But I've been known to hold grudges deeper than graves. So be careful what you do to me. Becoming close enough to me to hurt me is almost unachievable. But if I do let you in, don't take it for granted. I'm a mess, and I'm okay with knowing that will never change. I tend to be bitter about some things that have happened to me. But I try to make the most of what I have.

I usually won't go out of my way to be mean to you if I don't like you. I'm not that immature. But sometimes I do happen to let a "cunt" or two slip out of my mouth. People are constantly coming and going out of my life. I usually won't let myself get close enough to anybody to have an actual friendship with them. Why bother when they'll be gone in a year or less? I love the people I party with but, you will probably never know the real me. Unless you make a genuine effort to stay in my life I could care less whether you're coming or going. If I talk to you more than once a day, I most likely want to keep you

I have been hurt. Beyond belief. I've faced something that was worse than death to me. But I am not afraid to love again. I could leave you breathless or clueless. I know what I want. And usually I will stop at nothing to get it. I can be selfish at times. And I have a slight obsession with spending money. If you do something to hurt me, I will probably do something 20 times worse to you. But I will go to the ends of the earth for you if you play your cards right. I am probably the kindest person you'll ever meet.

Don't play games with me. I know how to play them better. I'm not your typical girl. I won't be attracted to you if you play too hard to get, and you're cocky & arrogant. Most girls feed off that shit, but not me. If you're honest and up front about how you feel about me, I'll like you a whole lot more. If you play the dickhead card, then peace the fuck out. Guys like that are a dime a dozen and I could find another one in a second. Don't feel special. You'd be suprised how fast I can replace you. I might get infatuated with you for the moment, but I'll never fall in love with you. My attention is hard to get and hard to keep. But if you do get it, don't ever let it go. Because I'm the best thing you ever had. I'm very affectionate. But I'm not a big fan of overly affectionate people. I need some room to breath. Never mistake my affection for attatchment.

You can only push me away for so long. Until I walk out of your life on my own. So be careful and make sure this is what you want, because once I turn around, I'm not coming back. I am real. I have never understood the concept of acting like something you're not. That has NEVER been me and I really wouldn't know how to be fake if I tried. But, I will not take your shit. And I will take you down if you're in my way. But I really don't care what you think of me either way. I wish for things that I don't need.

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