Relationships or something like it.
Friday February 13, 2009

I have never really been a big fan of them and well to be quite honest i still aint. Things just never seem to work out for me in the end or well at any part. It's not that i havn't found the right guy at all because this time around i thought i did. I just believe if you want to be with someone bad enough you would take the effort and extra time to let the other person know you care. I mean even if your just saying hi atleast that is something but having that "we talk when i wanna talk" attitude or "I'll get back to you when I think your good enough for me" crap will get you no where. It's only fair if you put the same amount of energy into the relationship as your parther does. It's not a she goes 95% and you do 5% type of debate, you put into it as much as she does or you shut up and leave. It's that simple when you think about it.

Don't get me wrong girls are wrong in some cases when it comes to relationships but more offten then any it's the guys fault. My point is when i date someone and i fall i go hard for him and i do what ever it takes to let him know he matters. But when the guys don't give me anything back or even a little bit of care i tend to feel as if i am doing something wrong and like he just don't want to have anything to do with me. I refuse to put my life on hold to wait for a guy to feel that i am special enough for his love or attention. If you don't wanna talk to me then don't but don't get upset when i wont talk to you, I am a great person and i deserve so much better then how i get treated. I am not an attention whore but having a guy make me feel loved or when he tells me i am pretty or i love you makes me happy. Is it too much to ask for a good guy to really be a good guy to me? I am so sick and tired of the players, cheaters, liars, wanna-bes, the assholes.


Brandi, Nicole, Angie,Zanna

Karma is a bitch and i love it.
Monday March 09, 2009

I strongly believe in karma and that saying "Do unto others as you want done to you". Screw getting payback, watching (name here) life fall into tiny stompable pieces is making my day. Don't ever for one second think you can cross or play little games on me. Stupid shit don't fly well with me, I do find everything out and i mean EVERYTHING. Time and time again you just keep proving how much of a lame ass you really are. It amazes me really to tell the truth. LMFAO what you don't even know is your "best friend" (her name) is telling me everything you are saying. Really you lame twat? Your saying i am a "never was" hahaha what is so great is she knows your little pathetic ass is lying and well she aint too happy at the fact you claim her as the "best friend" yet shit talk her non stop. Oh watching you became the nothing piece of shit you are is great!

To be honest I feel bad for (cunt's name) seeing she married you and is keeping your baby. I wouldn't say she is blessed or i am happy for you because well i am far from that. I am more so laughing my ass off at the fact you are so careless, (name here) you are just about twenty two and you married an eightteen year old. You are an irresponsible piece of crap, she had her whole life ahead of her and you pretty much just took all of that way. Who the fuck really does that and then your gonna say you "love" her. Umm you knew her for like two months and then married her. That is not love babe that is straight dumbness coming from you. From one bitch to well your worthless ass stop throwing the love word around, learn what the fuck it means before you say your in it. You throw it around as if it just some kind of game, you toy with people's feelings like it's something to be proud of.

For real i aint haten at all that aint my style. (name here) you played your game and sucked at it. I may have found out a little too late but i found out before it got worse. You fucked over the wrong chick and karma is going to beat your ass. Your "wife" (cunt face) already left you and i can promise your daughter will hate you as well. Trust me i am the realest girl you were ever with but once again i am saying thank you thank you thank you for making me better off with out you. I find myself happy and enjoying life and being more open. Sorry fucker you didn't break as hard as you thought you did, your never going to hun, I am way stronger now and bettter then EVER. Here's my middle finger up to you my peace out i am done thank you goodbye it was great you suck go die i'm over it PEACE BITCH!


Brandi,Stephanie,Zanna

Your own personal rag doll.
Sunday March 01,, 2009

After a year of putting up with nothing but high school bullshit drama, you would really believe it would have stoped by now. No you would be wrong if you thought yes on that. When is the right time to draw the line and just say enough is enough already your actting like your two years old strung out on crack? Is there a point in your life when you realize it has all been a lie, that you got so wraped up in your own mess that you just believed it was real? If that's the case sadly you need to wake up and come back to planet earth and do that thing we call real life. My point is you can't have a real life full on relationship if your stuck in peter pan mode. I spent a year of my life with someone i thought was perfect and amazing, someone that made me happy that made me feel loved, hell we even got engaged but that was a mistake, it was a never should have been, god he was a never should have happen type of thing. Soon after that the "relationship" just went down hill, it was nothing but fighting and drama, words being said that shouldn't have been, tears falling just the works. It end in mid-september and he fell off the face of the earth.

In February he popped back up actting different not the guy i once fell in love with. This was a hole new (name here) that i have never seen before. I was shocked, hurt, confused but most of all angry. My mind was racing with questions, where was here, what had happen, is he doing ok, was he hurt. For months i was hurt that he was missing and no one heared from him, no phone calls just nothing. (name here) wasn't saying much to me and was actting really odd as if i did something (which mind you i did not). He was telling me he was in jail and tryed calling but i never picked up so he thought i hated him. That was a lie because i never one got a phone call and i sure as hell would have picked up. I mean after all i thought the guy was dead for the past five months so his story just didn't add up and i surely did not believe him not even a little bit. Knowing him i thought maybe he was in big trouble and couldn't tell me or just didn't wanna tell me who knows.

Well i finally found out two days ago what all happen and why he pretty much walked out on me. That piece of shit cheated on me for the whole year and i had no clue (duh). Comes to find out while he was engaged to me he was dating another girl, when we broke off the engagement due to him being a huge asshole, shock of my life he got engaged to her while dating me. He told me he wanted to talk to me still wants me in his life but lied to my face about everything. Said he never cheated on me, never did anything wrong. Yeah (name here) that's why you told (your "friend") that you got married then split up and how your expecting a baby. But had the nerve to tell me none of that was true. I find my self yet still confused wanting to know why, after all i do deserve to know the truth behind it all and what really happen to lead to all of this. But (name here) has no balls is actting like a scared girl and wont tell me anything, not even a sorry is being said. It's whatever because he can't even take care of himself so how is he going to take care of a kid? Makes me wonder what goes on in (name here) pathetic head and yes he is very much so PATHERIC!


Stepha, Nicole